Yes ..today audrey is flying over to uk for further studies ..
I really din't expect that i will cry ...cause i don't think i will , yet , i cried like shit @@
all the best to audrey , she will definitely learn more and gain more : )
gosh ....was thinking about what would actually happened if im the one who is in the terminal and saying goodbye to my family and friends ...it's killing me man!
i can bear anything and do any hard works ,but , leaving apart with my family and friends , god , i guess i will need more than a thousand time to adopt it T.T
I bet that i will shed my tears while leaving my home and cry deadly while on the way to airport .Gosh , the thing that i fear the most is BEING APART ! i have no confident in starting a relationship previously ,because i hate to be apart with someone i care , and i do not trust that ,a relationship can be maintained by caring , sorry , i do not trust it ,being apart is like , u won't get a chance to see his real face while he texts you , u will just listen to his voice and without seeing his expression , get to see his face through the internet but can't get any hugs ,the most shitty thing is , u will not get to know is he cheating you , you will just get into it and believed it blindly , it is so stupid , and the brainless thing is you have to convince yourself that he is always being honest to you and never lie .God !!this whole thing is a crap man !!DISTANCE IS SUCKS !okay , even in friendship ,it makes me fear , there is no 100% possibility that we will still be as good as the old days , as people around are not the same , surrounding are totally different , slowly ,there is no topic and getting apart with each other .GOSH !!
okay , i will promise myself to be clam and be strong as in I AM WHO I AM !
