Sunday, February 24, 2013
FEEL & HOPE
I felt something ...
And , it is so strong , like it is real ....
But , I don't know , did I feel wrongly ? or what I felt is true ....
I have no idea ...
To be frank , I am selfish .....
As , I hope that what I felt and my feelings right now are real .....
I am sorry to be selfish , but I really hope it is .
***我喜欢你 是我的独家的记忆 谁也不行从我这个身体中拿走你***
SORRY FOR BEING SELFISH .
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
It's 2013 & I am turning to 21
Yes , it is already 2013 , while , time flies , really damn fast .
Yea , I admit , sometimes I do miss those moments that I had spent with her , like seriously .
Unfortunately , she did wrongly and I am not good enough to control it , things went wrong .
That day , when I talk to stephy , talked about my family , gosh , tears shed , was like god ...
I always feel sorry for my parents , as they willing to spend for my education, like sacrifice their life long saving , and I was like doing nothing , gosh ..... this makes me feels like SHIT !!
Somehow , I feel bad to my little sister , so I will just give her what she wants and pamper her . As my parents gave whatever is needed for me , my dad love me like anything , he just being so worry about my transport to uni , so he bought me a car , and its a vois , was like gosh , he said it is safer . I was like , I'M SORRY , IF IM SMART ENOUGH , DAD N MOM COULD SAVE MORE MONEY . was like HAIZ .
My dad is just like a god to me , he gave me everything and love me like no one could do it . My mom sacrificed everything for the family , what could I do more for my family ?! Like seriously , I don't know !
I cried , because , I realized that , I'm grown up , a big girl . Cried , because , I knew that , I couldn't be childish and playful anymore . I cried , because I knew that when im 22 or 23 I couldn't go round like what I usually do and be playful like I used to .I cried , because I knew that I have to take the responsibility to earn and take care my family .
My prior goal in my life for now is , save money to buy a house for my mom , I knew that she always feel insecure because of we have no house . haiz . Once upon a time , my dad is rich enough to have everything even few houses , but he sacrifice all of it for mine and brother's education .
A PROMISE TO MYSELF : stay strong , work hard and save more to buy a house BEFORE 26 .
Another thing .... my feelings I could curb it well , nothing important .
BE HAPPY for my family : )
Yea , I admit , sometimes I do miss those moments that I had spent with her , like seriously .
Unfortunately , she did wrongly and I am not good enough to control it , things went wrong .
That day , when I talk to stephy , talked about my family , gosh , tears shed , was like god ...
I always feel sorry for my parents , as they willing to spend for my education, like sacrifice their life long saving , and I was like doing nothing , gosh ..... this makes me feels like SHIT !!
Somehow , I feel bad to my little sister , so I will just give her what she wants and pamper her . As my parents gave whatever is needed for me , my dad love me like anything , he just being so worry about my transport to uni , so he bought me a car , and its a vois , was like gosh , he said it is safer . I was like , I'M SORRY , IF IM SMART ENOUGH , DAD N MOM COULD SAVE MORE MONEY . was like HAIZ .
My dad is just like a god to me , he gave me everything and love me like no one could do it . My mom sacrificed everything for the family , what could I do more for my family ?! Like seriously , I don't know !
I cried , because , I realized that , I'm grown up , a big girl . Cried , because , I knew that , I couldn't be childish and playful anymore . I cried , because I knew that when im 22 or 23 I couldn't go round like what I usually do and be playful like I used to .I cried , because I knew that I have to take the responsibility to earn and take care my family .
My prior goal in my life for now is , save money to buy a house for my mom , I knew that she always feel insecure because of we have no house . haiz . Once upon a time , my dad is rich enough to have everything even few houses , but he sacrifice all of it for mine and brother's education .
A PROMISE TO MYSELF : stay strong , work hard and save more to buy a house BEFORE 26 .
Another thing .... my feelings I could curb it well , nothing important .
BE HAPPY for my family : )
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