Well,was waiting for the loading of k drama ...went to fb ...saw some of those old posts and old comments ....
what to say ??
how bad is this feeling ...just can't control those fucking tears ....
feel that i was so stupid in the past .....caring about someone that back stabbing me badly.....
helping and protecting the one....
this feel is so sucks ....just like im a stupid clown ><
why am i such a failure ? just don;t understand why ......
such a failure in this .....
gave so much ,what i get? should not think in this way ,but ,really ....
who am i ?perhaps ,i should ask what am i ?
im just doing things to please other people, caring about the others' feeling ....but ...i had forgotten my own feelings ...what a joke .....
such a sad story to admit how failure am i ....
fail to trust someone ....
even fail to love someone ...
learnt it from the past ....how pain was it ....
thinking that why am i so disgusting ?
why am i so stubborn ?
it's a killing pain past ....was hurt like i don't even know what am i doing every seconds....
how terror am i ...i can even smile in front of people....what a freak man !
will never forget the killing pain ....
im pain in the past ,yet ,still pain in the present ....
i was happy there is a guy ....
but , the pain remind me I SHOULD NOT !
yea, i should not ....
it's good enough to remain the current relationship ....
i guess we suit more in this way =)
was so emo because of she and he ....
my emotions should not be controlled by the others....
i should control my own emotions ......
what am i ??
im sorry to get myself involve in the relationship...sorry , it will not happen again ....sorry ....
LOVE MY FAMILY !!miss my brother !!!!
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