You are the APPLE of my eyes

haha....went to watch the taiwan drama ~YOU ARE THE APPLE OF MY EYES ~
ermmmm...it's not a happy ending to me ....but ,it's ok ....at least they get to know what each other is thinking about =) felt like so complicated when I finished this movie , was like ......people who fall in love with each other doesn't mean that they can be together =(
一段感情最好的时候就是在暧昧的时候...from the movie ....yea , and it is so TRUE !lol !
what a sad story that that is so true ><
And , this movie makes me RANDOM !lol
It reminds me those days that we had in my high school .....
Miss those days when we spent together in high school .....
Miss those people that accompany me to play hard and study hard ....
But now ,they are not here =(
The fact is , it's already gone .....
I miss jun ....although I knew that sometimes i pissed her off ......n sometimes she do piss me off too
The very first person that i thought about when I finished this movie was her ....then i thought about the cd that I made it for her when we were 16 ...haha...till now the cd still with me , supposely the cd is her 16's birthday present , but i think we argued on that time , and i dint give her cd , after that i don't have the courage to give it to her anymore ...lol ........failed ><
Those time we were so crazy and funny , and stick together for whole day long ...I MISS HER ....I MISS THAT TIME !!!!
Yet , time flies ....i can't do anything ....it's ok ......




Another sad story , haha!!
Ermmmmm, i rejected someone !!!and I'm regret !!!! kill me pls !lol !!
I'm the one who rejected him , but I'm the one who is so regret ><
RANDOM me .....lol ......
It's not a big deal anyway , just I need to find someone to express , and i need a couple of days to recover ...
It was so complicated n suffering when this thing happened , and I still have to concentrate in my revision for mid term .......it's kinda SUFFERING man ! My mind was like ...omg ...don't think about him anymore , study !And ,another side was , I'm regret , and I was till concerning about his feeling after get rejected .On the other hand , my mind was pushing and stuffing the MARKETING things in my mind !!!OMG !!almost get mad !!!keep on forcing myself not to think ,study !!Was like I have personality disorder !!!lol
The reason that I rejected him is , i can't accept his lifestyle , too fancy and too many nightlife about  clubbing ....if , I'm his somebody ...definitely , 1 day i will get crazy and become a HORRIBLE MAD WOMEN !haha !!!won't let that tragedy happen for sure : )





Finally , there is a HAPPY story !!!
I think that myself is tough man !haha! i CAN study while those stupid things happened !
I can study my marketing man !UNBELIEVABLE !!!haha...
ermmm....i think i done quite well , not  GOOD ...it's just WELL......
bravo me !!!haha!! =D



Lastyle , another CHEERFUL story !!!
I want to do shopping .......shop till i drop !!!haha!! XD




haha !!! =D

What a realistic world

OMG !I'm so so so ....omg ...not to say sad...but , just i don't understand y it is like this !!

In this world , people always emphasizing not to judge a book by its cover ...

Yet , its always totally different in how they act man !!

Oh My Gosh !!!!

People in this realistic society are really !!!OMG !!!

I can't understand y ?

If a person is talented , yet , it's appearance is not that good ......

And another person who is untalented , but , he or she has a really nice figure and nice appearance ....

Guess, which 1 will be taken by the employer ??

ANSWER : the nice figure and nice appearance person will be taken although she or he doesn't have the qualification or untalented !

OH MY GOODNESS!! this is making me fed up !!!!!



OH WHAT A WORLD MAN !!!

I'm learning a lesson from this again !!!

that's not your fortune !

OMG !!! that's not your fortune !!pls don't tell me that it is your fortune !!don't be so calm !!please don't !!

U made me cry !!how can u be so calm ????why ???

omg !!!i scare something bad will happen !!

I'm scare !!really !!omg !!!

PLEASE DON'T HAPPEN ANYTHING !PLEASE RECOVER !!PLEASE!

someone told me "memory can't be erased by anything" "

所谓的误会与争执   在回忆涌起的时候   已变得不屑一顾...

saw this from someone's blog ...haha ...unbelievable that someone still remember things that we get through together =)

all right , its ok right now...im ok with the unpleasent past ....

we are still friends : )

Just that , another one , the person that i cant forgive on this moment ...

Just to say that im sorry , i can;t forgive u by now or soon, because , there is a wound that u leave to me ...

how much do i appreciate u ...but , it turned out in the bad way ....it's ok ...i have nothing to lost ...

I'm satisfied with what's going on now ,as well as people that are accompanying me now ...

love them and appreciate them ....without them , i think i can't get through those flaws ....

THANKS !!!!!! : )

Fragile

Happy birthday to my dear ellise =)

we get in her house secretly yesterday to give her a surprise ....yet , she doesn't discover at all ><

haha XD ermmm...felt a bit guilty about my ida's birthday , i din't even manage to make cupcakes for her ....

so sad...cause i was studying accounts that day ...i wanted to do cupcakes for her...but i don't have time for it

how sad is it =( and i dint finish the birthday card yet , and dint get to buy her birthday present yet ....im so so

so so so so so SORRY and GUILTY  =[

By the way ,im so glad to have them as my friends =)

without them , maybe i cant even get through the toughest part that i went trough .....

FRAGILE ......relationships are always fragile ....

Never thought that this kind of DRAMA will happen on me >< OMG !!

FRAGILE !!FRAGILE!! and FRAGILE !!

I think i will give up someone , as i had already try to pull down my face and try to be good towards you ...

but , u are still act so cool to me.....im sorry , it's already ENOUGH!! I'm not a CLOWN anymore !!

Although , i appreciate things that we have gone through , but , u seem like nothing about those memories ...

Well , fine ....it's enough ...i will STOP right here ....I'm FREAK with it ...have enough for that !!!

________________________________________________________

SAD T.T


Once again !!!i RUINED my econ paper again !!!

why ???why it is again and again ???

stupid me !!!careless me !!!

omg !!20 marksss!!!

GOD !!!HELP ME !!!!I DON'T WANT TO RETAKE IT !!!!!!!

It's weird

It's weird for someone to envy a person's personalities ><

it's indeed weird ...and it's like not logic at all...

it's no sense about it man.....

but .....a person's personalities won't change just because u envy it and it will evolve into hate it !

how childish is it ....really....

luckily ....i don't have this kind of friends around me now = )

REGRETTED

big regret man ...such a big disappointment ...

My mom told me ...im not going to overseas for my studies ...it was like omg !!

I'm craving for a colorful life at the other side of the world....

In fact , it's so sad to delay my colorful life, and , i have to face the fact that ...

My parents can't afford to make our dreams come true ...

I still have a sister that need to study ....and a brother that always need money ><

Haiz....what to do ? I just have to delay it ...and make my current life much more colorful =)

I'm always so regret that I choose to stay for a year at here ...now , it turned up to be .....I might staying here forever ><

But ,if im so mean to go aus in the beginning , my dad will be so suffering on the expenses of mine and my brother as well ....so.....choose to stay ...

How much i crave to go to overseas !!!!! In fact , dreams and reality are always totally different .

On the other hand , my life here is also happy but just not that happening ...haha ...

I have all of my friends here and my family ....but , i don't have my passion and dream here ...haha.....it's ok as long as i have them and my family =)




IT'S DELAYING AGAIN !! ><

Be a someone that someone appreciate

Ermmm.... I'm so happy that I'm being appreciated by someone ,indeed ...

haha....thanks alot dude !perhaps, we are just dudes ...it's ok la .....

ya ....what u had told me it's true .....yea....agree....

it's not suitable for me ,can't force myself to do so just because I want it badly .....

Luckily ,u reminded me .....yea ...

But ,it's a happy to spend time with u = )

I  will remember every moments that we gone through together .....

Learned a lot ......and u let me felt that I'm someone that someone do appreciate ...haha....

Hope that we will have a chance in the future  X)





HOPE THAT U WILL ALWAYS PLAY SAFE YEA !! XP

Life is too short to be unhappy

haha...finally , I success !!!haha!!

Happy that finally I managed to figure it out =)

Sometimes, things happened in an unpleasent way ....

But , I should accept it and let it down and try to learn form it ....

Yea, it's so sudden ...I'm even shocked that I just let it down so easily ....OMG !!

haha....actually ....it is not a big big big deal  ....just ...it's really sad and in the moment itself  will feel down and moody ....but , what to do if I can't let it go? continue to be emo? no way !!it will probably ruin my life ><

ya....it's really a big big big release for me right now ....

It's not good to hate a person too long ,as long as u get to hate the person for a while , that's enough ,haha.....

Let it down right now, it's ok ...people are born to face obstacles in life and try to get over it but not to escape from it ....at least , i learned something from it ......

I'm totally fine and released right now ....my life is too short to be unhappy .....

Forgive the one who hurts you ....cause there is no reason to be unhappy on the purpose of  the others' guilt..

Once ,it's colorful again =] COLORFUL !!! XD

I am something or somebody ???

Well,was waiting for the loading of k drama ...went to fb ...saw some of those old posts and old comments ....
what to say ??
how bad is this feeling ...just can't control those fucking tears ....
feel that i was so stupid in the past .....caring about someone that back stabbing me badly.....
helping and protecting the one....
this feel is so sucks ....just like im a stupid clown ><
why am i such a failure ? just don;t understand why ......
such a failure in this .....
gave so much ,what i get? should not think in this way ,but ,really ....
who am i ?perhaps ,i should ask what am i ?
im just doing things to please other people, caring about the others' feeling ....but ...i had forgotten my own feelings ...what a joke .....

such a sad story to admit how failure am i ....
fail to trust someone ....
even fail to love someone ...
learnt it from the past ....how pain was it ....
thinking that why am i so disgusting ?
why am i so stubborn ?
it's a killing pain past ....was hurt like i don't even know what am i doing every seconds....
how terror am i ...i can even smile in front of people....what a freak man !
will never forget the killing pain ....
im pain in the past ,yet ,still pain in the present ....
i was happy there is a guy ....
but , the pain remind me I SHOULD NOT !
yea, i should not ....
it's good enough to remain the current relationship ....
i guess we suit more in this way =)

was so emo because of she and he ....
my emotions should not be controlled by the others....
i should control my own emotions ......



what am i ??




im sorry to get myself involve in the relationship...sorry , it will not happen again ....sorry ....




LOVE MY FAMILY !!miss my brother !!!!

Acting like a CLOWN!!!

Ok, I'm truely fucked up with this kind of feeling .....
It's really stupid being a clown in front of people that doesn't appreciate you .....
This is because,I am that kind of stupid people ...keep on acting  that I am fine I am ok ...then keep on tolerate ...find chance to build up the relationship again .....but ,people doesn't care about it !!they doesn't bother it at all,and still stabbing behind me!!!
So,as i said ...im a fucking stupid clown !!!y im doing this ???cause i don't want to lose anyone of u!!
And it is really disgusting when someone that is so close to you ....keep on stabbing behind you ...and smiling in front of you ...like really so close ...and act like she or he is so care about you...
OMG!!!! DISGUSTING !! NAUSEATING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So，please cut it off!!u r so DISGUSTING !!! and u made me feel that im disgusting too!!!!
this really make me sick ...and i cant believe that ...i have this kind of friends..is friends not friend ...so not only 1 !!!!! really,it really killed me in the first place!! I was like ...going to collapse when I knew the truth !!

The one that I protected the most , you ...I just don't want to admit what u have done to me ...
Really, u are so innocent ...n i treat u just like a sister ..i even pampered u , but u done this to me !!
Do you know how hurt is it ??Whenever I see u ..i was like ....don't know what expression should I give u and I just don't know how ....It's torturing me ..indeed!!!
I was feeling to tell you i knew everything ,please stop doing this to hurt me and hurt yourself! U are not a girl like this ok, u should be kind and good ...but ...u are acting like so ...omg ...even dough u done this to me, but i don't want myself to hate u ! cause u are just too innocent even dough u done something really can't be forgive .



Yes, this feeling come back again...because we are having girls talk again >< with my rax and chageyo @@
Whenever i talked about u all , I just can't control my tears ....
Im hurt by u all , and u all just don't know that i actually knew about it ,and still acting in front of me .
For all the while i have no problem with my friends ,but u ...u are the major culprit !!u even influence the 1 that i protected the most !!haiz.....speechless ....


To my chageyo :
haha...i know u hate people to cry ,cause u will cry too ...haha...but ,sorry ..i just can't control my little tears ..cause its really hurt whenever i talked about them .I felt sorry for talking about u before , but that time i really think bad about u >< haha....but its already a past tense .I just want you to know that ,Im so touch when u said u are coming just to save me but not seeing her ...but ,in the mean while, i felt sad too.Because we are always protecting her all the time , and u do protect her too, now , u feel that she is scary , omg ...i feel that im the one who make u and rax feel scary of her .Actually , i felt that im wrong to spit out what she had done to me ,cause , this ruined her image.I just don't know what to do, cause it's really hurts .I was like no one to count on when i knew the truth ..feel that im lost .And., i always think that everyone will stand beside her .Im so shock that u said u r here to protect me ....really !!!We are the same type of  people i think , we are so stupid !Although we knew that , people is already not caring about us , and done something bad to us ,but we still so so so so stupid !We prefer to be a CLOWN !!! omg !!!so stupid!!but ,what to do?we are just stupid like this !!But ,now i choose not to trust anyone easily ,cause im already scare about it .Chageyo,thanks for protecting me =) and i will try my best to let u feel comfort , i dont know how to console u not to be a clown ...cause i dont know how to do so too ...just let it be i guess...i guess, 1 day ,we will let it go in a better way =)



To: my rax !!
Rax!!!!why u dint cry that day ???im waiting you to cry !!haha!!! Luckily , i have u and shin !!If not ,i think i will suffer till die !!!I have no one to say to , cause they all are so good .so sad that they done this to me !Although ,time passed ,but ,it's still hard for me ,whenever i think or talk about them,  i just can't control my own emotion .U will never know how it feels ,but u have no chance to feel it !haha!Thanks for listening to me when im in a bad bad mood, but ,please try not to hate her .I feel that she is not suppose to be hate by people, she just looks like  so innocent ,she needs people to protect her not to hate her ,she just treat me like that not other people and i guess, she get influence by someone then become this way .Anyway, thanks =)
i love the way we communicate ..haha!!!





To: my ellise ....
Actually u no need to feel down for it ,cause im already used to it .Just that i cant control my tears whenever i talk or think about it .Its ok , so no need to feel bad about it ,don't feel that u can't help me .It's already enough for u to stay beside me ,tease me ,having fun with me ...its already enough .And ,it is not necessary to let people to know the real face of her , because ,i don't want she to get hurt.I always protect her ,so ,i don't want she to get hurt .Although ,i knew that people sure stand beside her , but it's ok , cause , i get hurt for zll this time ,i can bear this  kind of feel.It's really a killing pain, she can't bear it . And, if u let people know about it ,they just will think that ,u are my friend ,of cause u try to help me ,they sure won't trust u ,at last , u will get hurt.It's really very pain ,so please don't do that .Im ok , but ,to be frank, no matter how long it happened , it still so hurt to me ,cause , the way they treat me is really  cruel and so mean .So, please don't do something that will hurt u in order to help me, cause she is too good and perfect  in the others' heart , u will get scold or have hard feelings , and u can't bear the pain .I know u feel bad that u can't help me , but .as long as i know your thinking ,it's already enough =)

Again and again

Finished the econ's paper ...felt totally released ...haha ...

But,I still have a last paper on Friday ...Business Stat ...what a sad story man ....

Unfortunately, I made a silly mistake in the econ paper ....I  drew the wrong supply and demand curve !!WTH !!!stupid me !!

I'm totally crazy !I lost 15 marks because of it !My efforts was wasted because of my carelessness!!!!15 marks man !!OMG !
       



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  AGAIN  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


 Again....heard something that I'm uncomfortable with it ....

Again....saw something that made me feel not too good....

Again....I had this kind of feeling on that moment .....

Nevermind, I should be used to it right now ,right this moment should not be influenced by it again ...

It's ok right now =)



...........because .....I have  自知之明.....





自知之明!!!

Korean food !

ok ....I'm always a food lover !can't help myself about it ...haha~

Went to have korean cuisine as lunch just now....

It took us around one and a half hour to the venue ....haha....

Well,the food is normal ....not too bad and not too nice ....it's consider as ok la =)

Went to celebrate a friend's birthday ...

It burned a hole in my pocket because of the korean cuisine and the present ><

But,the major thing is we were happy ...

So,the money was paid off well loo ...haha....



I LOVE KOREAN FOOD SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!

Grateful

Happy and grateful to have a bunch of good friends ....

They are so special...everyone has their own special characteristic ....

I guess without them my uni life probably will be BORED ....

For sure , we still have to make more efforts to make more friend...

The major purpose is to expand our circle of friend =)





Waiting and looking forward ....life is always giving us surprise ...as we don't know what will happen in the next moment ...=)
So, always being  positive and think that  I'm living for my own not living for the others =]

All about TRUST

All right ,im not trying to be negative or down ...just sometimes ...
I never have such strong doubt towards my  friends around me ...
Yet, finally ....I did !
I trust you ....
And I know your true colors from the beginning ....
But,I never spit out a word about that ...cause I trust that u are sincere  to me ....
Unfortunately , things came out in the other way round .
I dont feel like giving up...
But, its being more scary ...
Although I knew the truth , yet, I still appreciate what u had done to me before ...
Appreciate the time we get together .
Just that ,I'm not willing to admit that how sad am I in front of my friends ...! 




If u get a chance to see this post ,please don't be angry ,I don't mean to pull your face down ,just I'm finding a way to express my feelings in this kind of coward way.

Thankyou

How long it will last ? haha...I guess just a week =)
When I received the message ...am I angry or sad ?
Perhaps,it just a little angry about it ....
It's ok ,by the way ,thanks for giving me so much special memories :)
I do learned a lot from you ....
I get to know a lot of things from you.....and u always tell me how big is this WORLD !haha....
As I'm always curious how am I going to survive outside the big big world without anyone's support...?
And,u do teach me a lot of things and let me experience lots of fresh things that I never try before ...
Be with u,I will never get bored ,perhaps ,will be nervous all the time >.<
What did u tell me ??
U were hesitated at that moment , thanks for your hesitation ...if not, I guess I will regret till the max now !!
It's totally fine right now , because we both have the same mind that ...no matter what ,distance is always a big obstacle...!!
Thank God ! This kind of mentality save both of us !!
U are 3305 miles away from me ...and that's our DISTANCE !What a terrifying number !!
 Luckily ...we made a RIGHT decision !How brilliant we are XD
Well, take care ....please be more extremely careful in your dad's "career " ....
I guess I might miss you as a friend  =]
THANKS !!!!

Past

It's a past ....
Although it was bitter ,yet ,it's a part of my life =)
It's ok ...I will appreciate what we had gone through ....